she dun knw y,thr must be smtg happend b4 her exam.
she hates this,reali hates this and she reali scares of this.
"pls, stop this."
one more time,in less than one year,the god take away one more person tat she cares.
she hates the feeling of being alone here, she hates the feeling of canx see both of them for one last time, she hates the feeling of canx be there with those who care of them and send them off for one last time.
"I HATE this!"
She feels the pain,and she understands even btr that her closest niece will have more pains than she has. she wish that she is thr with her niece,jus the same as the time when they were stl young-they were oways together and be there for each other at sweet and hard time.
Her father called her,it was a normal call,bt it ended up with two ppl crying thr.
wat make her even sadder is her niece's voice and mail.
"SHE" is the best grandma of her niece.
"SHE" is her sis and her favourite "Ah muh(aunt)"
"SHE” is an excellent god mum of her bro.
"SHE“ is a friendy and closest sister in law of her parents.
"SHE" means so much for ALL of them.
she and her niece grow up tgt, studied in the same kindergarden,same primary and even secondary. Among o othr relatives, her family are very close to "ah muh" family.she can stl remember when she was in kindergarden,she oways wanted to go to "ah muh" house instead of going bec,as she knw her " ah muh" would sayang her,prepared her many foods,and even help her to take bath,this was how close they were. she would never gt scolded by "ah muh" even she was reali naughty and bullied her niece. she love her "ah muh" "kuih" so much - ang ku kuih, teow chiew kuih (ah muh could make the best ever teow chiew kuih),bak zhang.
during secondary, she din go to "ah muh" house tat often,til aft form 5.
she and her niece are studying at dffrnt place now, but they r stl close, everytime when thy r in hometown,they would stl meet in "ah muh' house. she stl can remember that everytime she visited "HER","SHE" would stl sayang and ask her to eat this eat tat and even ask her to bring bec the fruits from own orchard.
Even the time she visits "ah muh" became lesser, bt everytime she called her "ah muh", "SHE" would definitely show "HER" smile 1st,then think for a while and said,
" ah woon ah , it's u, ah muh is old liao , omost canx recognise u ''.
she gt to meet "HER" one more time b4 she flied, but tat was her last time to see "HER". tat time, "ah muh" knw tat she and her family gt a new house in kl,
" i wanna go to see the house when i bcm better and able to walk. "
everytime "SHE" said abt the fact "SHE" x walk,thr was an emo face,bt "SHE" oways covered it up quickly v a smile face again and ask abt other things.
It was the last time she saw "HER".
"SHE" treated her reali well,bt she never gives anything bec as a return or tx "HER".
NOW, she canx even b thr to send "HER" off.
she likes "HER" so much deep in the heart,reali like.
DO u knw the feeling of losing two important ppl in less than one year?
DO u knw the feeling of not being able to b thr to c both of them for one last time?
DO u knw the feeling of not being able to send both of them off?
and
DO u knw the feeling tat when u go bec, thr r two persons not being thr anymore?
"NO, YOU DON'T ."
